I feel tired all the time. I pass out but then wake up at all odd hours of the night. I’m stressed, all of the time. Hence me getting shingles last year. I wish I wasn’t tired during the day and that I could actually sleep during the night. Something needs to change here. I think I actually need to go to bed at a set time and try drinking sleep teas and try the whole aroma thing. I guess if I was also more organized and I completed everything on time this wouldn’t constantly be on my head. Maybe it’s the whole issue of getting back to school and what not. Looming over my head…but I need to push that aside. I’ve decided I’m going back in September no matter what anyone tells me. I got new calendars and day planners to help me stay on track. I need to actually legit start shadowing these classes. I need to walk. I need to put actions to my words and keep up with this blog.

What am I doing two months later?

Ate a donut last night and had a french vanilla. Which is loaded with bad shit.

And this morning had a Mc D’s breakfast…

I’m giving in to the vicious circle. I need to push harder.

1. Drink more water
2. Eat less food with butter and cheese
3. Stick to the more routine diet
4. TEETH
5. Hydrated skin
6. WALK AND RUN
7. Don’t eat after six

Lunch

• Spoon of rice
• Lentil soup
• Spinach
• Mango spice

Dinner

• Cup of lentil soup
• Grilled cheese Sandwich
• Cereal with lots of milk 

Astro BioBest Yogurt.

• Boiled egg
• Four crackers with butter
• Glass of milk

Note: Need to start drinking water too.

1. When I was in Florida over the holidays some woman couldn’t speak english started talking to my sister and cousin and I. We were at a table waiting for my parents to show up. And she was saying how my sister was beautiful and how my cousin looked like she was italian and then she gestured at me insinuating that I was fat and my chubby arms and “rolls” that made me feel instantly worse.
2. I was looking at pictures from the trip especially the ones underwater my arms were extra flabby my boobs were flopping out of the bathing suit and I just looked really terrible. My stomach was always potruding like I was pregnant. 
3. It’s harder for me to get up than it was before. I walk short distances that I was able to walk before and I am always out of breath…
4. I didn’t walk today…YET